hi, my name is ethan. i post here my random thought of the day.
Sunday, 19 June 1836
MY BELOVED ANGEL,
I am nearly mad about you, as much as one can be mad: I cannot bring together two ideas that you do not interpose yourself between them. I can no longer think of nothing but you. In spite of myself, my imagination carries me to you. I grasp you, I kiss you, I caress you, a thousand of the most amorous caresses take possession of me. As for my heart, there you will always be — very much so. I have a delicious sense of you there. But my God, what is to become of me, if you have deprived me of my reason? This is a monomania which, this morning, terrifies me. I rise up every moment say to myself, ‘Come, I am going there!’ Then I sit down again, moved by the sense of my obligations. There is a frightful conflict. This is not a life. I have never before been like that. You have devoured everything. I feel foolish and happy as soon as I let myself think of you. I whirl round in a delicious dream in which in one instant I live a thousand years. What a horrible situation! Overcome with love, feeling love in every pore, living only for love, and seeing oneself consumed by griefs, and caught in a thousand spiders’ threads. O, my darling Eva, you did not know it. I picked up your card. It is there before me, and I talked to you as if you were here. I see you, as I did yesterday, beautiful, astonishingly beautiful. Yesterday, during the whole evening, I said to myself ‘She is mine!’ Ah! The angels are not as happy in Paradise as I was yesterday! Farnam Street Blog
One resolution: write more letters. Hopefully the pen and paper type.
One goal: make kimchi at least once.
And a list of things to keep in mind, and to check back in 360 days:
- Spend more time to remember; and more effort to forget.
- Spend more time away from technology and read, stare, or be bored.
- Cook a bit more.
- Exercise a little.
- Hope. Because God will open another door somewhere.
China Blocks Google, Again
While the domains play.google.com and plus.google.com aren’t specifically mentioned, it seems that the Google Play Store and Google+, as well as pretty much any other service hosted on Google.com are also being blocked.
As the once-every-five-year 18th Party Congress is under way, Google gets the block treatment. Not good news when for Google when its market share in China has just dipped below 5%.
Now, more bad news for Google: imagine if you are trying to sell a Android smartphone. You can:
- Sell a stock Android device, and risk your users not being able to access search, app store, and most basic functions of a modern smartphone for the foreseeable future
- Port Android. Like Xiaomi, Lenovo, etc. Sell tons of cheap phones and hope developers jump on the bandwagon.
The second option is clearly the safer choice. Still think Google will take off on mobile in China?
I am better at dry sadness than at cold anger, for I remained dry eyed until now, as dry as smoked fish, but my heart is a kind of dirty soft custard inside.
I am not sad. Rather stunned, very far away fro myself, not really believing you are now so far, so far, you so near. I want to tell you only two things before leaving, and then I’ll not speak about it any more, I promise. First, I hope so much, I want and need so much to see you again, some day. But, remember, please, I shall never more ask to see you — not from any pride since I have none with you, as you know, but our meeting will mean something only when you wish it. So, I’ll wait. When you’ll wish it, just tell. I shall not assume that you love me anew, not even that you have to sleep with me, and we have not to stay together such a long time — just as you feel, and when you feel. But know that i’ll always long for your asking me. No, I cannot think that I shall not see you again. I have lost your love and it was (it is) painful, but shall not lose you. Anyhow, you have me so much, Nelson, what you gave me meant so much, that you could never take it back. And then your tenderness and friendship were so precious to me that I can still feel warm and happy and harshly grateful when I look at you inside me. I do hope this tenderness and friendship will never, never desert me. As for me, it is baffling to say so and I feel ashamed, but it is the only true truth: I just love as much as I did when I landed into your disappointed arms, that means with my whole self and all my dirty heart; I cannot do less. But that will not bother you, honey, and don’t make writing letters of any kind a duty, just write when you feel like it, knowing every time it will make me very happy.
Well, all words seem silly. You seem so near, so near, let me come near to you, too. And let me, as in the past times, let me be in my own heart forever.
Your own Simone A Breakup Letter from Simone de Beauvoir
@Twitter and @Summify revisited
A little while ago I posted some thoughts on Twitter’s rationale for buying Summify, and what Summify could do to bring back disengaged users on Twitter.
Recently I’ve noticed that I haven’t been using Twitter as much. For example, the last time I checked my feed was 4 days ago on my phone, and I rarely use the web interface. I think this decline in usage directly correlated to me spending more time with aggregation services, like Zite and Prismatic. Yes, Twitter is still my go-to place to look for breaking news stories; but daily readings are usually not urgent and it is easier to miss important stories when browsing through the Twitter feed. Zite takes care of that problem and brings stories that I would’ve missed or not even come across otherwise right to me.
I think this is another opportunity where Summify’s algorithms could shine. The logged out user phenomenon is well known, and if a user could get all the important stuff they want to see, minus the noise on Twitter, the user may not come back to Twitter again (especially as aggregation algorithms get better at learning the interest graph).
I am already receiving emails like below for my dormant accounts, which I think is huge for them:
I think the next step for Twitter should be creating a Twitter-independent aggregation service that keeps the user’s minutes being spent in the Twitter family. This will be cannibalizing to their existing business metrics. But it’s a lot better to keep the user, than seeing him fleeing to another service right under your eyes.
Email from The Listserve
Google translate is great, and I use it extensively while learning Spanish. But there’s only so much it can do. There are some words of a language which remain untranslatable. Here are some of my favourites:
Duende (Spanish)- On a translator, it’ll show “elf”. It is actually the spark of divine inspiration, expressing itself out of one’s heart, or the involuntary feeling of awe, in reaction to an inspiring piece of art or music.
Tenalach (Gaeilge)- The relationship one has with the earth, the air, the water. A deep connection that makes you one with nature.
Gemütlich (German)- Translates as “comfortable”, but it is the sort of comfortable exhibited by a warm house full of people who love you; when you are happy and relaxed.
Ya’aburnee (Arabic)- Literally translates as “You bury me.” The declaration of one’s hope that they’ll die before another person, because of how difficult it would be to live without them.
Koi No Yokan (Japanese)- The feeling you can get when meeting a person for the first time, that you will fall in love with them. Different from “love at first sight”, as it does not say that love already exists, only the knowledge that it WILL happen later.
On that note, I’ll sign off. Hopefully you will find these words as beautiful as I did.
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